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18 June 2014 @ 03:06 am

Moving my journal over to meganapplesauce... C'mon over :)

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take a deep breath and inhale my sparkles
02 February 2014 @ 09:24 pm

I received a nudge in my email from a lovely girl who pointed out that I've abandoned livejournal for the last 9 months.

I've been using tumblr for quite awhile, mainly because I thought livejournal had been abandoned by everyone. I re-downloaded the app and was pleasantly surprised to see lots of my old lj friends are still here and posting. I think I'll be moving back here for awhile. Tumblr will just have to go on without me :)

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30 April 2013 @ 06:08 pm


I dreamt that I was dating three guys at once, and somehow they all got invited over at the same time to watch a movie. I was panicking, not wanting them to find out about each other.
Sean was one of them, not sure who the second one was (tall blonde guy was all I remember) and I think the third one was this Indian guy I used to know from Pizza Hut named Abdullah.
There was also another girl there, and I was quickly thinking that I would have to choose which guy I wanted, and then I could try to pretend like one of the guys was with her, and the third guy was just there to hang out.
Guy #2 sat on one small couch, and then Sean walked in, and I immediately knew that he was the one I wanted. I pushed the girl to sit next to him, and then sat Sean down on the bigger couch and jumped in his lap. When Abdullah walked in, I called out a casual “hello!” and then focused all my attention on Sean. Abdullah seemed confused, the second guy seemed confused, but all I cared about was that Sean didn’t know anything weird was going on.
Next thing I remember was that everyone was leaving, and when Sean was about to walk out the door, I stopped him and started making out with him in the doorway.

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14 April 2013 @ 04:10 pm


I used to watch movies and tv shows and see couples “fall in love” and I believed it, I cried for their happiness and their heartbreak. But now, I watch it and call bullshit on it all. You can’t fall in love after two weeks, you have no idea what you’re talking about. There is so much more to love, you need to know the person so much better, know so many more things than you could possibly learn in two weeks or two hours. I know it’s a tv show/movie, it isn’t supposed to be real, but I used to think it was real. I think it really proves how much I’ve changed, how much more realistic I’ve become, and how guarded I’ve become with my heart. I can’t wait to feel those feelings again, but I’m in no hurry, because I know it isn’t something you can rush. When I finally do have those feelings again, and say them out loud, it’s going to be so amazing.

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09 July 2012 @ 08:58 pm

My roommate and I have a contest going on to see who is going to have sex first. We are both trying to loose. Every time I come home late he asks me if I "went to bone city" and when I tell him no he gives me an evil eye like I'm lying.
Game On! I've got this!
(maybe)

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06 July 2012 @ 11:44 am

I guess I'd have to say that I'm feeling much better than I have been in months. Work has been extremely busy, which has always been my number one preferred distraction method in life, so that's good. A new girl named Kristen started and she's fun to be around so it perks things up on the boring days.

My roommate and I are still getting along pretty well. I feel like I have to chase him down for rent every month which is getting really annoying and uncomfortable. it astonishes me to listen how some people handle their money. He makes 15k more than I do and he lives check to check. I just don't get it. It makes me wish I hosted a TV show similar to "made" where I could bombard their life and take over their finances. I'd be really good at it. I rock with budgeting.

My group of friends has been leaning on each other a lot.. I guess because James, Morgan, and I are all single now so we are leaning on each other for support and entertainment, and Theodora is just around to have something to do. We've started calling ourselves "the pussy posse" which I find hilarious. Theodora even found a shot glass with four different alcohol glasses on it titled "group therapy" and she says the shot glass represents the pussy posse.

I've started to push dating into the back burner. It's never going to work out with Jake, and it's becoming easy to accept that. I'm glad that we reconnected this last year and gave it another go, but he just doesn't want what I want and I'm not going to get hurt trying anymore.

Aside from him, I have a really good idea of what I want, and I realize that I'm not likely to find it easy. I'm done meeting random guys when I go out, and I realized I kind of act like a ball breaker when guys try and talk to me. A year ago I wanted to go on dates with anyone who would offer, but now I'm done wasting my time. Everyone says you find love when you stop looking, and I'm ready to stop looking. I like my friends, my dogs, and the movies I've got recorded on my DVR. I don't need some guy to entertain me. I've even gotten used to sleeping alone and I kind of prefer it that way. (as do my dogs!) so ya know, things are alright.

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30 May 2012 @ 03:14 am

He is still there. My thoughts are still consumed by him. My happily ever after.. Still has him in it.

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17 April 2012 @ 02:39 am

Awhile back I had talked about one of my supervisors who thinks he is The Shit. I mentioned that I would keep track of his Why I Am Awesome stories, but I failed miserably. I have some recent ones!

Our department is open 24/7. Somebody called in on second shift and another person called in for third shift. Somebody made a joke about how somebody from first shift should just stay for all three shifts and work a triple. One of the supervisors piped up, “You do not want to do that. I worked a triple shift once and it was NOT fun.” Mr. Awesome chimed in, “Only three people here have ever worked triples. Me, Tom, and Dave. And only ONE person has ever worked a QUADRUPLE. And that’s ME.”
-Of course. Because you are the most badass person in the world. Nobody works as hard as you, buddy!!

He’s got some vacation time at work next month. He’s going to Florida with his wife, and he says that they are renting a car for the week. Not just any car, a drop top Mustang!
-Because only a drop top Mustang will work. How else will everyone on the beach know that you are the baddest mofo around?

While talking about interesting bars people have gone to, he chimes in with one of the coolest bars he’s gone to. (Not THE best, just ONE OF the best. Because he’s been to so many awesome places that he cannot possibly pick THE best.) He talked about a bar where after midnight, a red light started flashing and girls all started cheering and taking their shirts off. He asked a bartender what was going on, and the bartender explained that after midnight is “tops optional.” So the remainder of the night girls danced around topless. He talked about watching girls dancing all night long with their breasts flopping all over the place and smacking them in the face, etc.
-I am SURE this is true. What girl doesn’t just LOVE to dance around topless in front of a bunch of strangers for their own pleasure? Not to mention it feels AWESOME to bounce around and have your boobs flop everywhere. It doesn’t hurt at all. No way.

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10 April 2012 @ 10:12 pm

I didn’t spend Easter with my family. I’m glad I didn’t. My dad called me today and told me how things went. He said my brother and his girlfriend came, and his girlfriend had made these little Easter baskets for my mom and I with various candies and such inside. My mom felt bad for not having anything for her in return, so she faked it. “Oh! I have something for you too!” She goes upstairs and comes back down with a box. “Here! I got you this necklace!” She hands it to her, and when Cole opened it, she says, “This is the necklace I got you for Mother’s Day last year.” Nice one, Mom.

I said to him, “Weird, I talked to mom yesterday and she didn’t say anything about that to me.” He tells me, “Oh I doubt she even remembers. She was drunk.” “Wasn’t it an Easter BRUNCH?” “Yeah, she was gone by the time they even got here.”

Typical.

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09 April 2012 @ 01:00 am
:(  

We had The Talk. It went as expected.

I am hung over and heart broken. :(

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